I knew it would happen sooner or later but was hoping it would not come at all and that maybe I would be lucky enough to outlast, out train and outsmart my own mental beatings. I Monday for my scheduled swim, got to the pool and quickly realized I had forgot my ear plugs but I did have a back up pair which I don’t really like but would do. Then I realized I forgot my watch so now I was going to have to count all those laps without getting confused. I started my warm up and felt OK but once I started on my main set things started to change. First I remembered why I got new ear plugs as the backup pair were hurting my ears and it was quickly becoming annoying. Then after about 6x100’s I lost count and couldn’t remember if I was on 6 or 7 dang.
By this time I was not feeling comfortable in the water, taking in mouthfuls of pool water like I had just started to learn to swim or something. Then I seemed to be out of breath much easier than normal even at the same pace I have been swimming. I even took extra time after about 10x100s to relax and get my breath back. I swam again and was right back in the uncomfortable zone and now I was really getting pissed. I totally stopped my set and changed to a kick board for a few to see if that would change things but when I went back, it didn’t! after about 1800 I was done. I was not having fun, frustrated, doubting myself swimming and wondering how the hell am I going to make IMCdA?
I got out sat on the bench and watched others swim. I text Coach Liz for some words of advice and basically it was apparent that even a bad day in any training can bust you down mentally and take you out of the game.
So what did I learn? No matter how bad it may feel or look you have to stay with it. Yes, it may be uncomfortable but it’s not giving up or stopping and that When you begin to Doubt yourself, THE GAME IS OVER!
Yesterday I was all excited to get my run on and turns out JT got stuck pulling a 13 hour shift at work! Yikes. I was so tired when I got home it was a quick bite to eat and was in bed by 9pm. I still feel tired this morning but that’s ok as I am looking forward to tonight’s swim for a little pay back! HA! And with 66 days remaining it sucks when work gets in the way!
On a cool note, BIGUN` will like this. I got an email from the RD of RAGE stating that I had signed up but my payment did not go through due to an error on their and to sign up again online. I went through the whole sign up process again only to get an error once again. It told me to wait 5 mins and resubmit payment. I did and then it told me there was a Duplicate Payment! CRAP!! I emailed the RD and explained. He replied stating their was an error on his end and to just bring a check or cash to packet pick up and that he would waive all fee and late fees! YES!! BBSC ENDURANCE SPORTS rock!! Thank you guys so much. Sorry Bigun you didn’t get your $5 back but there are good RD’s out there you just need to come to Vegas to do there races! HA! OK well I have to get to work before I am stuck here another 13 hours..