Tuesday, September 14, 2010

a curve ball...

It's been about two weeks I wrote this but just wasn't ready to post it..

Last week was a emotional hit in the stomach and it was hard to focus on things, still is if I really let my mind go and lose focus. My girlfriend and I have been together for just over a year and while she is without a doubt the kindest loving person I have met of which I have been blessed to be with her. She is a strong women and goes out of her way for many things, is not a drama person and just goes with the flow, I love her dearly! So after finding out she has breast cancer (Ductal carcinoma) last Tuesday really pulled the rug out from things. I mean what is someone to think, right? At first its like it's not real or unrealistic but then it sinks in. She goes back to the doctor later this month for info on treatment and things. Ductal C is diagnosed in about 60,000 women per year or 1 out of 5 new breast cancer cases. So as anyone can imagine its been a shocker.

The first week was just trying to understand what was happening and comfort Dez with love and support. She is doing well overall but has her moments. It actually took me a while to really hit me I think and after about 5 days it sunk in. Heading into this past week I was on a Recover week so I took some time on my runs to really think about all this. It has been hard to kind of grasp but overall it's here and it's time to understand it and face it head on, just like running these ultras.

thanks for letting me share..

rockon'

8 comments:

Formulaic said...

I can only guess at what you and Dez are going through.

Me and my family are here for you. And not just in the 'grab a beer' kind of way. If you need to talk or hell even don't even feel like cooking and could really use a home cooked meal, let us know.

We are here for you.

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So...
...
Want to grab a beer?

S. Baboo said...

Jeeze JT, that is a shocker. Thank God you are there to crew for her because I think you are right, I think this is a lot like an ultra. Take care of yourself and take Form up on his offer. THere's no such thing as too much support.

lindsay said...

I can't imagine... I am so sorry you guys are having to deal with this speedbump. I hope and pray it is not too advanced and can be conquered with a little fight. Definitely take form up on his offer. Free beer and dinner for at least a year :)

Thinking of you both!

RBR said...

Oh my God, JT. I am so sorry. I know how crushing that news is and how hard it is to be the one that is healthy in that situation. The powerlessness, guilt over being healthy, anger at the disease, all of it. If you ever need to talk or vent, please email me anytime.

{{hugs}}

-Stacey

Tea said...

JT--I'm so sorry. As Brian said, it's a shocker, but you are one helluva a support crew. Running is a great way to "process" everything that is going on.

momo said...

jt - my running partner had ductal carcinoma (dx 6/2007) and my cousin was just diagnosed with the same a month ago. i would love to get your girlfriend in touch with mrs. c - she's an incredible resource and so positive and upbeat. let me know...

Josh said...

Hey dude - I'm finally catching back up on life (and blogs). I'm so sorry to hear this news. I can't even imagine...
Please keep us posted and let me know if I can do anything.

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