What next..is what I think as this weekend passes and I seem to have.. no wait, did damn near NOTHING! So let's back track..
The week was fairly good for swimming as I got a good couple of long swims in and 2 short run, I mean short, only 3 and 4 miles. Work this past week was crazy and it actually bumped one of my runs and had me tired and playing catch up all week long, grrrr!!! By Friday I was basically mentally fried.
With the help and motivation of Formulaic, who was on his way to his 1st Olympic!! (Way to Go Buddy!! What a race you had and Elements to deal with!) he helped me change a few things for Saturday and I attempted to hook up with a fellow CdA peeps who has a CompuTrainer for the course and has invited me to come ride it but I was unable to get a hold of the great guy and so that kind of left me hanging in the wind for Saturday. In the morning I got up and was so not ready to do anything so I took my time hoping the great guy would email/call but no luck. So by mid-morning I still had done nothing, the day had started and then it was after lunch where I found myself taking a nap and watching a movie. I didn't even go outside till about 7pm I left for a couple of errands which took me to the book store where I did pick up Triathlete mag and the 25th Anniversary Edition of Triathlete mag. Then came home and I looked through the mags and went to bed about 12am.
Sunday, I was out the door, not really wanting to about 6:30am and ended up riding an hour before I was totally ready to get off so I I did! I then managed to run 4 miles afterwards and felt a little better but still fought through the workout. By the time I was done, I was hungry and just glad to be done. I made some coffee, sat on the balcony and read the mags again and just began to think. The rest of Sunday was spent with mom.
Today, I was out the door and cranked out 6 miles and actually felt pretty good. It was really windy and I actually just enjoyed it as come race day who knows what the weather will be like. As for the rest of the week it has to be stellar!
Now as I was thinking on Sunday I began to wonder where it all started last year and "why" I signed up for IM. There are many reasons but it all comes down to the wire in the next 42 days! I think about what needs to be accomplished in that amount of time and if I can really pull this off. It seems like I need more time but while training I feel pretty good out there. So where does that little bug of Demotivation come from and WTF! I don't have time for that shit. After relaxing on Sunday and enjoying the mags, I put together a little list of things I need to get before CdA and I understand that basically the next 3 weekends are some heavy training days and then it will be taper time and come ready or not, CdA will take no Prisoner's!!